Well my friends, it seems as if I should be on the road to economic self-sufficiency. And I guess that if I was another person, I might be. But as of right now I am looking at about 9000 dollars in credit card debt for photo production and I still haven't paid this year's taxes which will be around 5000 bucks and I just got a mysterious tax bill from the City of Philadelphia for 2000 dollars regarding my PAID 2005 taxes. What the fuck is that about?
Yeah, that's an awful lot of money I owe. THAT'S A LOT OF MONEY. How did this happen? I'm damned if I know. Seriously, the money I spend is all on photo shit and how is it possible that I spent THAT much on my work? I'm totally burned.
Now, I know this is mentally ill, but, to me, it's worth going into debt to produce my work the way I want to. It's 100% worth it. The way my household income works is I spend all of the money I bring in on my work, and I spend some of Lynn's money on my work. Lynn spends her income on supporting both of us and pays all our bills and deals with all our financial stuff. I know, as much as I am committed to my work and think it's important, it makes me seem like a total asshole.
But the Pew runs out in 2 months, I have less than a thousand bucks in the bank and I have no concrete plans for income. Does the term "shit's creek" ring a bell? In the next couple of months I am hoping to figure out how to make enough cash to pay my taxes and then pay my debt off to zero in the next 2 years.
The biggest problem is that I hate thinking about money, and I wish there was a way to have a system for myself as easy as when workers have taxes taken out of their paychecks. I'm not complaining; I'm just genuinely mystified by how when I was making the most money I ever have, I managed to accrue over 15,000 dollars in debt.