Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Cash Money Negative Thousandaire

Well my friends, it seems as if I should be on the road to economic self-sufficiency. And I guess that if I was another person, I might be. But as of right now I am looking at about 9000 dollars in credit card debt for photo production and I still haven't paid this year's taxes which will be around 5000 bucks and I just got a mysterious tax bill from the City of Philadelphia for 2000 dollars regarding my PAID 2005 taxes. What the fuck is that about?

Yeah, that's an awful lot of money I owe. THAT'S A LOT OF MONEY. How did this happen? I'm damned if I know. Seriously, the money I spend is all on photo shit and how is it possible that I spent THAT much on my work? I'm totally burned.

Now, I know this is mentally ill, but, to me, it's worth going into debt to produce my work the way I want to. It's 100% worth it. The way my household income works is I spend all of the money I bring in on my work, and I spend some of Lynn's money on my work. Lynn spends her income on supporting both of us and pays all our bills and deals with all our financial stuff. I know, as much as I am committed to my work and think it's important, it makes me seem like a total asshole.

But the Pew runs out in 2 months, I have less than a thousand bucks in the bank and I have no concrete plans for income. Does the term "shit's creek" ring a bell? In the next couple of months I am hoping to figure out how to make enough cash to pay my taxes and then pay my debt off to zero in the next 2 years.

The biggest problem is that I hate thinking about money, and I wish there was a way to have a system for myself as easy as when workers have taxes taken out of their paychecks. I'm not complaining; I'm just genuinely mystified by how when I was making the most money I ever have, I managed to accrue over 15,000 dollars in debt.

5 comments:

Justin said...

Ms. Zoe you are right to think that it is all worth it, because it is. But my dear don't forget that $15,000 is a drop in the bucket compared to what I, and most of the people we know owe for undergraduate and graduate school. Not that this makes the cold hard fact of debt any better, but hopefully it will make you rest a little easier.

p.s. why on earth don't I know about the Million Dollar Movie, WTF?

zs said...

Debt, shmet, Sunday nights after the news on channel 6. Get ready.

Mark said...

A slurpy machine maintenance gig @ 7/11, 3rd shift will give you plenty of time for your work. Think of the photo ops at 3 am in Philly!

Chad said...

Jesus, sell out the Chelsea show!
...and if that doesn't work, there is always doing what I do Saturday nights at the Dolphin Tavern....good god.

Writer and Nomad said...

this problem of yours is pretty much how me and all my artist friends feel. it's nice to sell a few things and win a few contests, but there never really seems to be enough to support yourself and your dependents AND to keep being the fantastic visionary that you are.

at least i am not alone.

p.s. i tried to send you my Africa photos from kodak.com. it won't accept your e-mail address as valid.

april